Grieving Mom who lost her only son
My 47 yr old son did not feel good in January. He was in FL, me in NC. I urged him to go to the ER.......he did mid January, they sent him home with the flu....he want back again the following week and was diagnosed with metastatic malignant melanoma in most organs of his body including a 5 inch mass in his chest. We got him here 2 days later and to an oncologist. The news was grim, 2 weeks to a month to live. Greg fought this monster with radiation and chemotherapy for 7 long months and did not want to die....he was so young. I cared for him during this time 24/7. He passed away 9 days ago and I still cannot believe he is gone from me. I miss him so much I hurt all over. He never complained even when he lost the use of his legs and right arm and lost so much weight. He never complained when he crawled like a toddler to the bathroom. He only complained of the pain that last week before he went into Hospice. I was there with him through the torment and restlessness he endured. His final day he was peaceful. I want so much to see him again and to touch him and to talk to him. He did not want to leave me. We are not suppose to bury our children, no matter how old. I need help from other parents who have lost an adult child to this insidious disease. Will I ever stop crying?