Hanan Rafidi kamar
(Jerusalem, Israel )
My mum passed away 11th July\ 2012. She was only 55 years old. She had been diagnosed with breast cancer that had spread to the liver. Just a month ago, my mum was feeling good, I traveled and left my two kids with her. She had a lot of dreams . On Monday, the 2nd of July, she became very ill, doctors said she is terminally ill. Myself and my two brothers refused to listen . We coordinated with ambulances to take her to Jordan. She stayed there for 9 days. In the first few days, she had shown progress and looked better, but all of the sudden she started to have blue signs under her skin, doctors said her plasma is very low and should not move!. On Wednesday, 11th of July, the day she passed, doctors told us "take her back to her country, there is nothing that we can do ". We insisted that she will be okay if she gets the proper medications .
At the end, we gave up and decided to take her back to the West Bank. She arrived at 8.30 pm and passed at 09.50 pm .
We were all there waiting for any news from the doctors who took her to the ICU. Everybody told me calm down , she will be okay. My husband and my brother gave me a juice and insisted that I should take it because I looked very pale and tired. Just after her funeral in few days, I discovered that they put sedative medicine for me in the juice and waited for two hours before informing me about her death . The news was like a disaster, I cried and cried and still crying. I can't believe it . Everyday I am missing her more and more. She was everything , not noly a mum but a friend and a sister. I have no sisters but never felt I need any because she played the role perfectly . Now I am alone, miserable, pessimistic, unable to concentrate on anything other than her death.