Happy Birthday Christopher

by jae
(Anytown, USA)

Christopher's birthday was Friday, September 10 he would have been 26. I found myself trying to forget how old he was, I think because I did not like the 'would have been' part. He committed suicide and I almost understand. He had such a sweet spirit, kind and generous but life dealt him some very tough turns. I can say I understand because of the grief I have experienced for so long, you get tired of the pain. I think his decision was made in a effort to relieve pain of a sort I am not familiar though this pain is really bad, I can only imagine what Christopher's was like. I don't think he is in a better place but in an easier place. I think he can see my enormous grief as a measure of my great love and disappointment over losing him in my life, of a future and dreams lost and of the empty arms this mother has now.

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Nov 11, 2010
This is the hardest thing a Mom can deal with
by: Pat

I too lost my son to suicide on Sept. 20, 2010, he was 36yrs old. He was my first born. I cry every day, my heart is so broken. I Want to tell him I love him one more time. The loss of a child is beyond any pain a person who hasn't been in our shoes can imagine. From one broken mom to another let's pray God will see us through this. Children are suppose to bury their parents. Parents are not suppose to bury their children.
May God Bless You

Sep 15, 2010
your son
by: kay

Hi there
I read your post and understand what you are suffering..the pain sometimes is way too much to bare. How long has it been for you? Is your pain the same? Only a mothers heart can feel the pain...I too lost my son suddenly on May 11 this year...I send to you lots of healing love ...You are in my thoughts xox Do you feel him in your heart?

Sep 14, 2010
Your son loves you
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for your pain. We never can understand the struggles a person goes through when in a frame of mind to commit suicide. Know that your son is with you every day and feels your pain and sorrow.... He loves you even more now. Look for signs of him communicating with you. He is in your life only on a different way.

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