Happy Birthday Christopher
Christopher's birthday was Friday, September 10 he would have been 26. I found myself trying to forget how old he was, I think because I did not like the 'would have been' part. He committed suicide and I almost understand. He had such a sweet spirit, kind and generous but life dealt him some very tough turns. I can say I understand because of the grief I have experienced for so long, you get tired of the pain. I think his decision was made in a effort to relieve pain of a sort I am not familiar though this pain is really bad, I can only imagine what Christopher's was like. I don't think he is in a better place but in an easier place. I think he can see my enormous grief as a measure of my great love and disappointment over losing him in my life, of a future and dreams lost and of the empty arms this mother has now.