So my only son left on march 1st 2010. Today was his sons birthday party he is turning 7. I wrote what is the face of grief here and it is fake a lie and just not real. I did as expected smiled hellos and such. Now i sit here and cry mad and hate how uncomfortable it is to look at people who i feel wronged my son wronged me. When he was in az i was in IN he was sick just had a stem cell transplant we always kept in contact mostly by instant messages. The relationship with the daughter in law was not good. I couldnt get in contact with him called his house no answer emailed his dad who was also treated the same as me by these people asking if he heard from him. Finally had my husband call the daughter in laws parents and ask and they stated they had no idea. Well all you mothers out there will track down your child one way or another right. I called the hospital and yes he was there. This just one example of what went on and today i went to my grandsons party. I was all that was expected but to have to look at these people knowing what they did. Believe me this was just one of many unexplainable cruel happenings. I promised my son to always be in the grandbabies lives and i will. Unfortunately to do that i have to hold back.