Happy Valentine's Day My Beloved

Today, being Valentine's Day, one of the more special days for couples. As I sit by your resting place, remembering all the times you used to surprise me with roses, even times when you were in the hospital. Now, there's no one special to share that day with, I sit talking to you, tears running down my face, thinking about you and how much I missed you and your touch, and thinking if only for a few more minutes, but NO, I could never think to be that kind of selfish to have you suffer in pain again, when I know you're in heaven with God now and I am left here alone, God still has plans for me.
But always remember that I love you still so very much each day and miss you terribly.
I found a poem that someone else had posted on here that I thought was fitting:

My beloved has died - I'm
Frightened and hurt
Please don't get angry,
impatient or curt -
If I'm not progressing as
you think I should.
I'd love to snap out of it,
if only I could.

You see, we were a couple -
A team, you could say
always together, every day.
Now there's just me, alone
and scared.
Missing my loved one,
someone who cared.
There's a void in my life
and I'm full of despair
Long to be loved, but there
is no one there.

So, please don't get angry,
please understand
That I feel like I'm
drowning in shifting sand.