Harrison and the Butterfly

by kristinalouise@gmail.com
(Orange County, California)

Before my son died, we went for a walk. He was a baby.

I came to my home and went to disassemble the stroller/baby chair contraption. I went to set him down to open the door and narrowly missed squashing a beautiful caterpillar.

I think their souls collided.

Later, a week later, I found my son dead in the morning. 9 weeks old and a victim of crib death. Cops, family, stress, tears. There was a lot of commotion. After it cleared, only my father and his girlfriend remained. I went to close the drapes after a very long night. We found a mass on the drape nearest the patio door...

"Gross", I said.

"Let's see what it is", my dad said.

"Ew, fine", I said. Sleep overtook me.

Three days later, just after coming home from cremation arrangments, a butterfly was flapping it's wings against my window - trying to get out, to find light.

A 'Mourning Cloak'. As I was wearing. My son gone, a memory remaining.

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Jul 17, 2012
Courtney and Harrison
by: Angela

Courtney, my heart and soul ache for your loss. I'm sending all my love, prayers and the strength of a host of angels always to you. As a irish liverpool girl, I will light a candle at Liverpool Cathederal for beautiful Harrison and his beautiful family. Sending much love and light x

Jul 13, 2012
I believe
by: Anonymous

I fully 100% believe that there souls collided! I can't even imagine your pain-too great but know that you are not alone in your suffering. We all suffer until it's our time to fly!

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