Having A Bad Day

by Mary
(Ocean, NJ)

Today has been a very lonely day. The weather is rainy and dreary and so is my life. It has been five months since I lost my loving husband and I feel stuck. I am still having a difficult time believing Gene is gone forever. I can't seem to get past the loneliness. I have dear friends but nothing can replace the love of my life. Somedays are better than others, but today has just been a day where I feel so lost. I just don't know what to do with myself. I am retired, so I don't even go to a job. I know I could volunteer or get a part time job, but I just don't feel like doing anything. Again, I just feel stuck. Will it ever get better? How do I start a new life? How can I get through the loneliness? I have no answers.