He is gone but I feel he still alive..
by Malva Velasquez
My was an agronomist. One day he went to the mountains to check something about his job and sadly he got bitten by a bat.
5 days later he was in coma. The doctor took his right leg because it was infected, thinking he will be better after that, but nothing happen.
I never went to see him because we are from Panama and I am living in U.S, I got a student visa and I was afraid to lose it. And if I lose it I also wont see my boyfriend again and we have a strong relationship.
My relayionship with my day back in Panama it was ok until I was 18, we fight becuase he had another family.
So when I knew he was in coma I started to be concern about What would I do if he died? Would I go back?
For 5 months he was in coma and 3 days ago he passed away :(
When my mom told me I was at college. I didnt know what to say....
I stayed here in U.S I didnt go to his funeral. I feel so bad because I did this, he was my father and I picked to stay here. Also I dont talk about it with nobody. For me my father still alove i cant accept he is not longer here. He is my dad!!
The last time I saw him I ignored him... Because I was so upset at him.
Now he is gone, I know he knows already I apologized him, I know he is in a better place, I know he is looking at my from heaven. I know all the stories to make somebody feel better.
I havent cry my dad either, I dont talk about it! For me my father still alive...