He still has all of me
My husband of 23 yrs...Oscar died over 2 yrs ago from Pancreatic Cancer. There were so many things left undone, today I'm angry!!!! So angry that he gave time to everything and everyone, he never liked to say no to others; with me it was always "we have plenty of time for that".
I loved him he loved me and the final days of his life proved that love. But why did I always have to be the one to wait, the one to understand, the one to put her life aside, I get thru each day because I have no choice, but I don't know how to get past this...I don't even know who I am without him...no one should ever be allowed to love this much or too hurt this much.
I'm drowning in pain and those closest to me don't even seem to see it and others just seem to ignore it...not because they don't care but life has moved on for them....but my world stopped spinning!!! I must sound like an idiot but I just needed to put this down...maybe the shouting inside my head will quiet for awhile.