he was my everything
my father passed dec 14th last year 2011 although we cant be exact on the dates as he was lay there a few days,even saying that brings back the gut wrenching feelings....
my father was just 56yrs old when he according to the coroner had a fall in his flat which caused his rib to break and puncture his kidney causing internal bleeding.
i cant begin to tell you how much pain this has caused me, my brothers and sister,it was me who had to call someone to break down his front door and find him this way.
my dad struggled his whole life with depression as a child to his death he battled with alcohol issues his main weakness,and 2 yrs before he died had a series of mini strokes caused by the drink and smoking but he came out of it fighting and quit drink and cigarettes for good ive never seen him look so healthy in those 2yrs before his tragic loss of life, my dad was the best and in my eyes he wasnt a typical drunk,it was the depression that caused so much unhappiness within him......
i miss him terribly and his sense of humor was amazing he was an will always be the funniest man i will have ever known.
to hug him tightly and say i was so proud of him is all i want to do,,,,
i never will be able to hear his laughter or see his beautiful smiling face again ,
ive battled with depression ever since he left us and the flash backs kill me over an over again,the questions go over in my head everyday,
what were his last moments like ??
was he in alot of pain??
was he calling out to us for help??
it hurts so much to know he died totally alone.