I lost my husband to cancer August. 2013 . I've been having a very hard time dealing with the loss of him and dealing with the loneliness. I stay with my son because I can't stand to be in my own home. It is so quiet. So very quiet. This was my second marriage . My first husband died from cancer 20 years ago. I don't know how to deal with losing both husbands. Plus my beloved mother five years. I've lost so much. My spirit is broken. I don't know where to turn or what to do. I spent most of my time taking care of them I don't. Have friends. I have lost a lot and I feel like I'm losing myself. Please let me know how to deal with this.