Hi. I am 28 years old and am suffering the loss of a breakup. I have had two other failed relationships. I thought this one was the one. He was so persistent and moved very quickly. Within weeks he told me he loved me, and was talking about kids and marriage a few moths later. For me, it seemed kinda quick. He always wanted to be around me, every day. I almost started feeling smothered. Then little things started happening, jealousy and anger outbursts over nothing. So I wouldn't speak to him and then he would call and apologize. This started happening almost every week for about a 8 months. Finally, he would get mad at me for things I wasn't even doing and started picking me apart. Who I was. I never made him happy, I didn't want to give him what he wanted, anything and everything you could think of he got mad. Like I was walking on eggshells around him. I tried everything to make it work. He started telling me you dont want marriage and kids. I meed a woman who will settle down with me. Im like we fight every week, how could i possibly marry you?? Then he would no longer let me say how I felt, he would say I was arguing with him, when it was due to all the negative things he would say and do. I tried to talk and he never wanted to hear it again. Finally, we got into another one of our arguments and he went behind my back and got a girls number where I worked. I'm completely embarrassed and feel betrayed. When I confronted him, he told me that's what I deserved for being the way I was to him. I feel he did this to manipulate me like he always did. He sincerely believed he did nothing at all to hurt me and it was all me. He told me last week he wasn't in love with me, how could I be he said, look at you. Look it how you act. When I tell you I am just an average person and did nothing to this man, hover him, betray him. I only tried to make it work. So I left. He calls and I haven't responded or spoke to him. Inside, I'm devastated. He is out and about having a great time and here I am devastated by what he said. He said all of these words out of anger all the time. I don't know how I could still feel love or miss someone like this. I'm scared and afraid. Inside I feel how could someone who loved me do this to me. I'm beginning to realize he never did love me at all.