Heaven received 5 new Angels
It's hard to even know where to start. I feel like I have no one to share my feelings with. So I'm here. I've lost 5 members of my family in less than 6 months. My grandfather (maternal) passed on Oct. 25, 2013 after a long illness and a full life. I feel like I still have not properly grieved his passing because at the time I was dealing with a lot of things going on with my mom. She had been ill for a couple of years, in and out of hospitals. She was on life support for 7 days then was taken off and sent home with hospice care. Two days after my grandfather passed, I lost my mother. Losing her was the most difficult thing I've ever to deal with. My mom was matriarch so to speak. Everyone in my family looked to her. She was so smart and successful. She was my best friend. After her death, my dad was completely lost. He couldn't function. He didn't know how to do anything because my mom did it all. Paid the bills, grocery shopped, clean house. He was disabled himself and depended on her. So I was there for him. Every day. Making sure he ate, making sure the bills were paid, making sure he went to his appointments and the house was cleaned and laundry washed. Then in January he got sick with pneumonia and was hospitalized. After a week he came home but still didn't feel 100% better. He would call me just a few hours after I left his house and he would be crying. He would ask me if I could come back over and just visit some more. So I would. We would sit and talk about mom and cry together. We missed her so much. It had been about 3 months now that she was gone. I made him dinner and we sat on the sofa eating a bowl of my homemade chili and watched "The Day After Tomorrow". It was a nice evening. Just myself, my husband and my 2 year old niece who also lived in the home. Her mommy was away at a church event, so I offered to babysit. Soon she was fast asleep on the sofa between her grandpa and I. My dad had gone to use the bathroom and was taking a little longer than usual. I went to check on him and he was sitting on the side of the bed trying to catch his breath. I asked him if he needed a breathing treatment and he shook his head yes. I gave him the treatment and told him he needed to go to the hospital. He shook his head yes again. I called 911 and explained my dad was having difficulty breathing and I needed an ambulance. I turned my back for a second and when I turned around again, he was laying flat on his back and the breathing pipe was on the floor. His skin was turning colors and his body was shaking. I dropped the phone and tried to sit him up and I remember yelling at him and screaming for my husband to come. (He had gone outside to meet the ambulance) The moment seemed to span at least 7 or 8 minutes, but I was later told it was only about 2 or 3 minutes by the 911 operator still hanging on the phone. Emergency responders arrived and worked on my dad for 20 minutes but he was pronounced dead at the hospital on Feb 1, 2014. I guess I will always remember my dads death in great detail because I was there, I felt so helpless and it was SO unexpected. He was not supposed to die. My mom and grandpa, I was somewhat prepared for. But not my dad. After his passing everything else became a blur. A few weeks after his funeral, my Uncle Dan (my moms brother)passed away and in April my grandmother (dads mother) passed away at the age of 93. From October 2013 through April 2014, Heaven received 5 new Angels from my family. I miss them all so much, especially my mom and dad, everyday. It doesn't seem fair that I had to lose so many people. I know we have all said it probably, but I would give anything to talk to them one last time. I have learned this, do not take life for granted. Also, tell your family you love them and do not leave things unsaid. And just be prepared, for your family's sake.