It will be six months on the 21st that I lost my husband of 31 years and I need some advice. For the first five months after my Clyde passed away I thought I did well. I planned a beautiful "Celebration of Life", navigated through all the paperwork of closing his company down, probating his will, etc., and I put the house on the market. I also went to grief counseling and felt I was in a better place than most of the people in my group. I did not cry much and did not have too much trouble sleeping.
After I put the house on the market, I started feeling like I was spiraling out of control. I cry every day, have trouble sleeping, angry, anxious and seem to like having pity parties. What can be wrong with me? I was so strong the first five months but now can't understand why I am sliding backwards. I have never been a crier and this is a little scary that I can't stop the tears. Most of my days are okay and I function pretty well but then the tears and loneliness hits me right out of the blue. Am I that dumb to think I should be out of this grief by now or am I really going crazy?