Here you go
by M mack
(Chicago)
Jen,
Here's THE BEST HUG I can offer you. You are still young, witty, have a great personality and I can tell you're in the loop since you have teenagers. It's also 2 years.... I can't imagine anything in 2 years at this point in my path because I am just getting out of the numb phase. I'm still crying, sad, angry daily and hope it gets easier. Only 5 1/2 months and I can't hear a song on the radio without weeping. Memories are killing me and I'm too new to this right now.
However, you are ever so slightly past that (I hope) even though we'll never get over it completely. You miss your hug, best friend, strong shoulder, confidant, lover.
You may not get EXACTLY that out and about but you are probably ready for a companion. Get out there if you can and look around. Life is everywhere and you have the option to join in if it feels right. Someone to hang out with and have a fun conversation. We all need to look up at some point. When you least expect it, when looking up, you will find yourself moving along. You're doing great, just a few bumps in the way an you can climb over them. Hang in there my best to you.
M Mack