His name was Justin,my beloved son.

by VIcky

My son passed away May 31.2011
I am still in shock, in absolute pain, hell and misery. I have returned to work as a nurse, but am barely functioning. How can I take care of the sick when I know my son died alone ...sad and depressed. He was my 1st son, I had him when I was 17 years old. He was a brilliant and talented child, was always in the gifted advanced classes in school. He worked all his life and put himself thru college, getting his degree in engineering. He married a girl he met in high school and they had 2 kids. He bought a house and moved for his engineering job. When he was 34 his wife divorced him and met someone else. He had to pay child support and alimony as well as the house payment that he had once shared with his wife. He was upside down in his house and couldnt sell. 3 days before he died his wife took his son away and posted a notice on his door. He had been depressed and had started drinking and she didnt want him to be around his son. I tried to get him to go to a hospital but he refused to do so. He was found dead in his house. He was 36 years old, dont know the cause of death yet. His ex-wife took all of his things from his house. I feel so guilty about not being able to help him. He worked so hard his entire life and the way he died is so horrible. thanks for listening, a grieving mom

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Jul 02, 2012
by: Patti Meadows

Oh, sweet one, I feel Your pain....My son, Matt left for heaven on June 26th, 2006 due to a car crash....

I felt as though I was living in a cave for a long, long, time. I felt as if GOD did not love me the way I thought HE did to let this happen. I am a Christian and have been for a long time, and I KNEW GOD COULD HAVE PREVENTED THIS EVENT...

So I just withdrew...but finally I missed fellowship with THE LORD so much I surrendered, and let go of my anger and confusion...and PRAISE JESUS!!! HE healed my "SPIRIT of GRIEF".... I feel like I have been let out of PRISON....

I know it is still new, raw, and fresh for You, but please believe me when I say "HEALING IS POSSIBLE, and AVAILABLE...through The LORD JESUS... HE loves You and wants a relationship with You....Rest in the fact that Your Son is in HIS arms, and is in no more pain...

Just remember, You have not lost "Your Relationship" with Your Son, You have "temporarily" lost "Fellowship" with Him, but one day that will be restored....
Praying for You, Blessings, Patti Meadows (Matt's Mom)

Jul 01, 2012
Grandparents rights
by: Tracy

I'm very sorry to hear of your loss. My son Jeffery, died June 3rd of this year of a drug overdose. I'm still in the shock and anger phase, can't seem to get passed that part....
what I am writing to tell you is that there is a "law" that the courts recognize now, called the grandparents rights act. You can go to court and get your rights to have regular visitation with them. Please check into this. She has no right to deprive your grandchildren of your presence in their lives!! Good luck and God bless.

Aug 13, 2011
Lord Help You
by: Lucy

I understand the sheer terror you are going through....emotional terror.

Keep coming here, keep talking about it, let it out, you're not alone.

Jesus move in this mother's mind, heart, and soul. Lord bring relief to the anguish and agony she is experiencing. Father you alone are the healer of this kind of pain. Help her, help others, help me, to find rest, peace, and comfort in you.
In the name of Jesus I pray.

Jul 31, 2011
thank you for your kind words
by: Vicky,Justins mom

So its been 60 days since my son died, I am still in living hell. I went to the family doctor who gave me a mild antianxiety med, but nothing helps, I am going crazy. My sons ex wife says says that the grandkids do not want anything to do with me and not to call. I know my son would have never wanted that. He had gone thru a nasty divorce 2 years ago . I have been sleeping 12-13 hours a day and wake up exhausted, drenched in sweat. he is always in my dreams.

Jul 29, 2011
Praying for you
by: Cynthia

Lord father God please bless this mother. Lord just have mercy on her. Lord just help to be able to deal with this pain she will never get over. Take care of her Lord. Try to ease some of her hurt and pain. Lord let her that you are the only that can help through this, and not to turn her back on you. Just wrap your loving arms around her cause she really need you now Lord. All these this I ask in your son Jesus Christ name Amen.

Jul 29, 2011
by: Anonymous

i am so sorry for your losses i lost my eldest son on the 18th of june he just didnt wake up we have had no reason yet but i feel like im dead myself just feel i cant go on xxxx

Jul 28, 2011
Justin's Mom
by: Patti

I am so sorry for your loss. I too, lost my beloved son. His name was Matt, he was 26 years old. He passed due to a car crash. It has been 5 years, and I have been "stuck" in grief. I have finally started to see a grief counselor. I should have done it long ago. Yours is so fresh, don't be hard on yourself...I am by no means an authority, but just know what is helping me. I am trying to celebrate everything wonderful about his life, and that is helping me. I have been focusing on his death too long. I was privileged to have him for 26 years, and now and only now can I saw I am grateful for those 26 years. I will pray for you...Do you have any communication with your grandchildren? If you do, keep his memory alive with them. Blessings and prayers to you....Patti

Jul 27, 2011
by: Anonymous

It's still much too soon and you are still in shock. I'm going on one year in a couple of weeks since my beloved son died of leukemia. Just take one step, one breath at a time. You are in the worst club in the world but there are many others who will hold you up and support you. If you have a Compassionate Friends group near you I'd highly recommend going. They have kept me from going insane. They also have a facebook page where you can talk to many other parents who have lost a child. I'm so so so sorry that you have to go through this. I wouldn't want this to happen to anyone....
Shirley, California

Jul 27, 2011
Andrew's mum
by: Anonymous

My name is Lindy and I lost my 24yr old son Andrew on lst August 2009 aged 24yrs. Andrew was a nurse who worked with the elderly, he collapsed and died by the side of the road of sudden cardiac death. Like your son Andrew had marital problems. He had found out that his wife was cheating. His wife's lover and two of his friends beat up my beautiful gentle son. Andrew was devastated that she watched and did nothing. He has a beautiful baby girl Grace who was lyr when Andrew died. Andrew loved his little girl so much, he worked so hard and just wanted to be a good dad. He was beside himself with grief at the prospect of his wife taking his little girl away. From that moment on Andrew didn't feel well, he went to the doctor only two days before he died and the doctor put Andrew's chest pains and palpitations down to the stress of his marriage. Days later my lovely son, my best friend lay dead in the road. Alone. I would change places with him in a heartbeat for Andrew to have his life back. It has been two years and as time goes on for me it goes to reinforce that this is forever. Every day is like a mountain to climb. His wife won't even give me permission to place a headstone on his grave. I have no words of advice only to say that you are not alone and to you I send my love.

Jul 27, 2011
I'm listening!
by: Ruth

Lord Help This Grieving Mother As You Are Helping Me.
Continue to talk to God and to all of us, for we too can feel your pain.
I think that I am on the road to recovery as I pray and ask God to answer my cry for help. I lost my "only Begot Son Ervin" on March 19, 2011 and the pain is always present.

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