Hope this will help
by Febe
(Swakopmund, Namibia)
Its been 4 months and 6 days since my whole life collapsed, losing my love, soul mate and other half just three months before our wedding day. In this four months i have been visiting this site almost everyday. Its been very hard for me to comment as i am struggling to cope myself. Everyday is a struggle and I miss him more and more everyday.
The sadness is overwhelming and sometimes I feel like i cannot take it anymore, however one step one breath is what i tell myself, thanks to all of you.
In this past few weeks, I have realized why God send his son Jesus to die for us and defeat death, on this site one can see how devastating death can be and how it effects people. I think some of you agree with me that death is the worst thing that can happen, and the experience of loss due to death is something that one can never even wish on to their worst enemy.
Grieving changes ones life completely, with me suddenly life was meaningless, I still do not see purpose in anything, my life basically just became dull. Death needed to be defeated so that we can know and believe that our loved ones are not gone forever but that we shall meet them again for death is defeated.
It is not easy but we need to continue hoping and as I have seen in my own life, I did not really know what to hope for, for a long time until I realized that my hope should just be in Jesus, that one day he will come back and take us with him to the land of "milk and honey" where we will reunite with our loved ones forevermore.
Take it a day at a time and do not loose the faith, at times like this its all you can hold on too, no matter how difficult.
God loves you all, and I believe that he is in our midst, even though it does not always feel like it, he feels our pain and he understands. Lets continue trusting in him cos he is all we have.