How can I do xmas
I can't think about xmas. When I hear singing of xmas carols or see a shopping center all decorated up I just have to run away. It cuts through my heart like a knife.
I can't do xmas without you my darling son, it's way too hard. I miss you so so much, your smile, your laughter, your love. Last xmas you spent holidays away and when you rang me xmas day you swore you would never spend xmas away from family and friends again. That was not to be my darling....You live on in my aching heart. I adore you. The person I was is no more, a part of me has forever gone...and my heart will forever have a hole, an empty space that feels as big as the universe at times. I miss you so much Deano. love for eternity Mum xxx