How Can I Go On
How can I go on? I'm not sure that I even want to. Even though I have family and friends that are convinced that I'm dealing with this and being such a strong person. I'm tired of living that lie...my heart is broken. It's physically hard to breathe, I have slits where my eyes are supposed to be and no energy to put one foot in front of the other one. The really really sad part is that I don't care..I'm just tired. This is way too hard and there's no one that I can share my true feelings with. I'm really scared about how I'm feeling and pray that God is truly caring me during this time because if not then I just don't know. I feel like I was handling things pretty well up until now. In my original post I made the comment that my world ended on April 15, 2011 but I guess its taken this long for my body to catch up. I know that I'm rambling and this makes no sense..but I don't know how to maneuver on this journey that I didn't ask for and certainly didn't want. Someone please say something that will snap me out of this mood..maybe if I felt something I would be ok..but for now nothing or no one matters. What's the purpose.