How can I live with out her
1 month ago on June 30, 2012 my mother went to meet with the lord. However I though I had prepared my self for this and would not need to grieve. She was 54 and passed away from complications of MS. It was very unexpected, I was by her bedside for the 2 days before she passed, we went to visit her at the nursing home all the time but for some reason I have lots of regrets like not going to see her the day before she got really sick. I am now starting to grieve it has hit me like a ton of lead bricks and I am not sure how to cope I am only 29 I feel like by being the oldest daughter I need to step in and fill her shoes for my dad and 23 year old sister, but do I? I think about all the good times but then those last few days run throughy head and its like a bad dream, I just want her back but I know that won't happen. I just need to get through this but how?