How did you find God?
by Nancy N.
I lost my husband in June after a terrible battle with cancer. I thought I was ready to accept his death cause he was so sick, but apparently not. I am devastated. I just don't know how to get through the day anymore.
I am working fulltime, and I get tasks done that wont wait, but other than that, my days are filled with despair. We did not have children, I guess that might have helped me.
I have read many of your posts, and do find some comfort in knowing I am not the only one in this fix. But I have noticed that the ones who proclaim to believe in God seem to be coping better than others. I really envy that and would love to find solace and comfort in God if I could.
I guess you would say I am a Christian although I sometimes doubt. I have tried praying to God, "accepting him into my heart" and laying my troubles onto him. Yet I really don't think I am "getting it" because I haven't seen that this has helped my pain and grief in any way. Maybe I am being naive in thinking this might be a simple thing to do.
I know this is probably a weird question, but can anybody tell me how to find God and receive the benefits others have described? I mean specifically, how exactly do you do this? I am grasping for whatever it takes for me to get through this terrible grief and come out sane and find some happiness again.
Thanks for listening,