how much loss can one person take?
I've been on a downward spiral since 2009. I first lost my dad to cancer. That was followed by the death of 4 pets that same year. The next year, 3 more pets and a special uncle. Two more pets the next. Another plus a special aunt the next. 2013 continued with the sudden loss of my mother in law and just hours ago, my oldest dog just passed. I find myself afraid to remain attached to anyone or anything meaningful in my life since I fear I will inevitably lose them next. How can I move forward without that lingering dread of who's next? And how can I deal with the anger and frustration of thinking why me? I live in fear. Fear of being alone when everyone and everything close to me is leaving me all over again? How much is too much? It seems there will be a breaking point where I wonder why I don't just distance myself from any more pain from loss. And the question remains...is it worth it?? Or are we better off being sad, lonely people who in the long run spare ourselves from any more heartbreak?