How much worse can it get?
April 2010 Vavcation.
First, I want to thank everyone here for their kind words; Buzz, HH, Patricia, Jen and everyone else. Sorry if I can't remember everyone's name right now, I am still having trouble concentrating. And if there was anything I could say to help your plight I would. But we all have to take this in small pieces.
My year has been full of sorrow. Not only did my wife pass on Dec. 1st; my Mother passed on Jan. 27th and my Uncle (her brother) on Nov. 22nd. My father passed in Jan 98 and my step-daughter (lise's daughter) in Nov 04. I am trying to look at 2011 with optimism knowing that at least I am running out of people to outlive. Does that sound right? Am I going nuts? This road is tough.
I avoided all TV references to the new year and was in bed by 9pm. I did not want to not have her to kiss at midnight. I wouldn't commit suicide but I would welcome death. Do you know what I mean?
I went with a friend today to visit another friend whose wife just underwent surgery. I think I felt a little better since the holidays are over. Not good, but I didn't have those damn holidays staring me in the face. I can't wait until everyone takes all the decorations down and they stop playing those merry holiday commercials.
I want to wish us all a better year and I hope that we can start to smile when we remember instead of cry.