How will I cope?
I lost my husband 7 months ago and wonder how I will cope with everything myself. Noel went to hospital with a sore back and within hours was ready to go home feeling good with painkillers. Minutes later he had a stroke in my arms. My handsome vibrant husband took three days to die. Now it is all me. I have to be there for my kids to grief for their dad. I am the one to pick up the pieces when my teenage boy gets hooked on drugs to ease his pain. I am the one who is the bread winner and has to pay the bills. Sometimes it just gets too much and the panic over comes me. Time goes by and people forget, but I feel I have a life sentence. Where are those people who said they would support me? How do I stop feeling bitterness towards them? I just want to feel some happiness in my life. I know that with faith it will get better, but it is so hard.