i am crying while i am writing....

by lokesh
(patna, india)

i am lost

i am lost

i dnt kno wat to write... but wen i hv gone through all your painful narration. i fail to control my self to recall the 12th April 2010.. when i was in train from kerala to patna after completing my MBA course i hardly reached Tirupati when my heart begin to feel the loss... but i was nt knowing this loss can never be compensate.. i lost my mother on that very day...
well she was suffering from kidney disease for 10 months,her both the kidney became less function able even it was nt in condition of transplantation... but i was not expecting the same date... i am alone son of my parents im just 25yrs.. it was the worst minute for me to put fire on my mom's dead body... my dad become alone...
i love my mom.. still i believe she is with me.. i cant stop my tears while writing this..
" how i can raise my hands to you to hold
when no one is here for me to hold my fingers when i am stumbling"
for all those who have the same lost..

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Apr 14, 2011
by: lokesh

it is the greatest truth... that her physical appearance is not existing now... but it is also the biggest truth her soul will be always with me...

Thanks to all of you who has given a moral support to me...

i miss you mom... love you...

Apr 11, 2011
I am crying while I am writing
by: jules

Know that you have come to the right place to help you through this. I lost my mother to alzheimers disease 18 years ago - that was when she died, but her mind had gone long before that. I know that she is up there somewhere looking down on me.

I have also lost my husband, 16 months ago, so am grieving still from that loss. But the one thing I take comfort in is that he is not in pain, he is not suffering, nor is my mother,

Come here to this site when you feel the need to speak about your loss - you will find comfort, advice and caring.
remember - every day, one step, one breath
take care

Apr 11, 2011
by: Zoe

If you have been reading here then you know, this is a long and painful journey. I know it caused you pain to put the fire to your mother, but you said yourself you knew on the train. I think she knew you would feel the loss and touched you to know she was always with you.

I am a widow, but I have two grown children whom I love very much, they are my light. When it comes my time to leave this world to be with my John, I know they will feel pain, it is my hope that they will know the joy they have given me, how much they have fulfilled my life. Even in the darkest of times, they have always been my light and I know they are the best example of my life.

I am sure your mother is the same, feel your grief, but know she holds you in her heart, you are the things that show what she loves the best.

There are times when this site is hard to read, especially in the beginning. It is hard to deal with others pain when you cannot stand to feel your own.

and remember when you can do nothing else
one breath, one step, one day at a time.

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