i am getting what I deserve
After 14 years in a difficult marriage, i finally got the courage to leave my husband. I was no longer in love with him and he was a difficult person (uncompromising, a bully, way too attached to his parents who are crazy) but he had a good heart. Anyway, at first when i told him i was so relieved and hopeful about my future, but about one month into the divorce process he met someone online and became serious with her very quickly. Since then i have been depressed and sad and wondering if i made a huge mistake. i spend all day crying and am so scared to be alone. i know deep down i dont really want him back. Our relationship was not working for a very long time despite many attempts at counseling. Anyway, i never expected to feel so upset and worry that this feeling of despair will never go away. Of course i want him to be happy, but i feel like he replaced me very quickly and must not have loved me very much if he got over me in 5 minutes. But I chose to leave. I just dont know how to deal with this pain. Help!!!