I am just so lost and lonely
Where did everyone go? Even the ones who have gone through the grieving process aren't there unless to tell me you need to get out. I don't have the emotional effort to get out. I feel like I am the one who has cancer and no one wants to be around me. I don't like being alone. I don't like cooking anymore. I wish it was winter people don't expect you to be out and about. I don't know what to do with my life or my thoughts. Dam I just need a hug and someone to come over and have tea or bring a meal. I feel like I have the plague. I get out 2-4 times a week. But yesterday I just crawled in bed early and cried and have been mostly in bed today. I am not hungry and don't want to eat or cook. so I eat cereal. I have started a weird habit of getting up during in the night and eating. I barely remember it. My counselor says I am trying to comfort myself. I miss my Jimmy, I miss our talks and laughs our kisses. I miss our everything.
Maria in durham,nc