I am losing my husband
This is my third marriage. I was on my own for 10 years before marrying again - I did not expect to and I was enjoying my life. But he was someone I knew in high school and we had shared values. We both thought our relationship was God ordained. We both brought our baggage to the marriage and thought we were on top of things because we knew this and what the baggage was. But psychological problems and anger pulled me away from my husband. I did not know what to do or how to help him or myself. I retreated. A year later - he is now the one wanting out of the relationship. I feel betrayed because I stayed when I should have left and now he wants out. I am 60 years old and the thought of starting over yet again terrifies me. I sold my home; moved across the country; left my friends to come here and be with him. I have no idea how to start again. I am barely functioning. I am trying not to blame as it serves no useful purpose. I need practical solutions. This may sound comical, but I once heard about a woman going through a divorce that went to live with the Amish while she recovered. Oh, I would do that in a minute if it were an option. I just want to go away and heal. I don't know what else to say.