I AM REALLY TRYING
Roger died three years ago. Six months later my mom go sick and I moved her into my home. About three months ago I got sick and my dr. said I cant take care of mom and myself. So I found her a really nice assisted living home.
But now I am alone. My family keep saying it has been three years I should be over it. So I can't talk about him. Which I love to do but it makes me cry. We were married 32 years. I am trying to make a life. He was my best friend. Hew was my only friend. I have not friends to call and say lets go to dinner or to a movies. My kids are not close by and they have their own families.
I just don't know what to do. I am so lonely. I visit mom everyday. Just so I have some place to go. But the nights. The nights are so lonely.I sit and cry.
And when I try to talk to my family they just do not understand. They think the sadness should be over.
Oh God, I miss him so much. I know I have to build a new life but how do you do it when you are alone. I have no reason to be alive. How do I go on without him?