I can't get my life back together
I have just lost my best friend of 23yrs to secondary breast cancer and the next day my dad died of a clot that went into his lung. I don't do anything that I use to before all of this, I have no motivation to want to do anything except sit on the couch and watch tv and movies all day. I was active before all this, I use to ride my horses, do exercise and be so happy with my life but now I am always unhappy, crying, feeling depressed and I keep having flashbacks about everything I saw and went through. My life is not the same and I don't know how to start living life again, I feel like I just don't care about anything anymore nothing seems important. My family has also had trouble with my youngest sister over my dads things and he had just been buried so now none of us are talking to her either as she has been causing so much trouble and she even abused my mum. I feel alone at times and I feel like everyone has left me, I want to be happy again but I don't know how to.