I can't move on from my past
I was seeing my ex off and on for three years, although for the last two years it was more off than on. But we still spent every day together. With him, I had some of the best days of my life--and the worst. He was emotionally manipulative and our fights were horrible. I wasn't seeing anyone else during this time because I didn't want to lose him. Then, I decided I wanted to take my life off hold and date someone else. At this point, I lost him. That was five years ago.
Even though I was dating someone else, I took the loss very hard. I continued to think about him every day. I still think about him every day and the feelings of loss are like it just happened yesterday. I can't get him out of my head, I can't stop thinking about him, I can't let him go. It's destroying everything around me and I don't know how to move on.