I didn't know what I had until it was gone I miss my dad so much

My dad was more than my dad he was my best friend and he would do anything for me. My dad passed away about a year and a half ago and I really miss him. He passed away 12-08-2010 and I just can't get rid of the thought that he is gone. I know one day we will meet again but the sad part about it is how he died. It all started when he passed out and his girlfriend stole his wallet and he woke up and didn't realize that it was gone and he came back home and went to sleep and then the next day he realized that it was gone so he decided to get drunk and high before he left then he went to his girlfriends house on his 4wheeler and he got there and he got his wallet back and then he got mad at his girlfriend becuase she stole it then he got back on the 4wheeler and he was still drunk and high and he passed out again and had no controll over the 4wheeler what so ever and it just kept on going and a coal truck was parked on the side of the road and he was on the side of the road also and he didn't wake up and the 4wheeler run up under the coal truck and it killed him instantly. Plus he was only 36 years old and still had his 10 year old daughter (me) that still needed him in her life

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Aug 12, 2012
I didn't know what I had until it was gone
by: Barbara

Oh! my! You are sooo young and I am so sorry for your loss. A Dad is so important to a little girl and big girls as well. There are no good words to say all the cliche's are just that.n There is no such world as closure either.
I'm much older woman and I lost my Dad when I was 28 years old and my mother when I was 37 y/o.
Dear there are sooo many parts to grief and it all comes in waves. I've had many losses and it still hits me but not as often. Even at my age I wish I could just pick up the phone and call them like I used to. It's been 30 years since I lost my parents and I was a adult and now I am 64 years old. All I can say it's a rough road ahead and there will be good days and bad days but time does make it better. Just try to take care of yourself and be a good person because I do believe he is watching you from above and just make him proud and try to find more happy days than sad days. It will come in time. Sports is a good release if you can find something to lose yourself in that will help you release negative energy and find friends that build you up to help you. Nobody understands until they have been thru the same thing. Stand tall, head up and believe in yourself and surround yourself with kind people. It's okay to cry and it's okay to talk about how you feel. Don't keep it inside it will hurt much more if you hold it in.

Aug 12, 2012
I didn't know what I had until it was gone I miss my dad so much
by: Doreen U.K.

I am sorry for your loss of your Dad. You are so young to go on in life without your Dad. Do you have a mom or significant relative in your life? who can support you? Who is going to bring you up in life? It is such a pity that your dad was drinking and driving. It affected his judgement. He made mistakes that could have been avoided had he been sober. It is sad that the future for you will be incredibly difficult and painfull. But don't give up HOPE. With the right support and proper care you can move through your grief to grow up and be the person you were meant to be. You will have made your dad proud of you. You have such a mature attitude. I wish you the very best in life and every success.

Aug 12, 2012
felt for u
by: paige dickson

i know exactly how you feel...it is so hard to get over but intime...you will but it will still hurt you at times

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