I didn't lose a child; I lost my parents and need love
Me and my baby
I know this is probably the most bizarre, unexpected post one could make on a site like this... but, I am in an unstoppable search to find parents who will love me for who I am.
The story of how I ended up without parents is a long one. I couldn't and wouldn't want to put it on the internet for the world to see. I think the most important things to know are that my parents are still living and breathing and well; but because have become a single mother to what they call their 'bastard grandchild', they see me as a disappointment and disgrace. Even though they are "Christian" I think they have taken it to the extreme and have forgotten the 'love' part of Christianity. It only makes me sad for them and the great things about me they are missing out on. They told me they no longer wanted to be my parents, and now I have been ignored, and had their door slammed in my face for the last year. For years I considered cutting ties with them anyway, because my father was a rather abusive man (physically and emotionally), and he isn't very nice to my mom. I've learned a lot about myself; how to get along without them and how to grieve a loss... yes, sadly, I've grieved the loss of my parents even though they're still alive. I'm okay with it, and I have gone on to learn inner strength and now I am active duty in the Air Force and achieving a lot of my goals while serving my country and mothering my daughter. I just wish I had a family.
My new parents do not have to live in any certain place or have any certain amount of money. They don't have to have over-the-top awesome careers or be any face in the media. I am simply asking for someone to share my accomplishments with; someone to fuss over my daughter and tell me how beautiful and smart she is and that even though I am doing it alone, I'm doing a good job. Someone who will love me no matter what. But, I am not asking for a friendship. I am very serious about finding real parents. I want to make sure I'm compatible with them. I want phone calls or skype frequently, and I want to come visit even though I am stationed in Germany right now. I want it to last a lifetime through the good and the bad.
I know I will never replace anyone's lost child, and I hope this request for interest isn't seen that way. I just know that I need parents who will love me as if I'm their own. In turn I hope seeing this unconditional love and support will help me raise my daughter the same.