i DON'T KNOW HOW TO LIVE WITHOUT HER.

by pATRICIA
(DENVER , CO)

MY MOTHER DIED ON DEC 31 AS I WAS ON MY WAY TO HER HOUSE TO CELEBRATE THE NEW YEAR. I MOVED BACK HOME 4 YRS AGO TO BE WITH HER I SPEND EVERY WEEKEND WITH HER SLEPT IN HER BED AND JUST TALKED ON CHRISTMAS SHE DIDN'T SEEM RIGHT BUT i TOLD HER I WOULD BE BACK IN 4 DAYS TO SPEND THE NEW YEAR WITH HER AND BEFORE i COULD GET THERE SHE WAS GONE SHE WAS MY VERY BEST FRIEND THE ONLY PERSON THAT I COULD TRULY TRUST AND KNEW EVERY DETAIL OF MY LIFE. MY HUSBAND OF 26 YEARS LEFT ME A MONTH AFTER WE MOVED BACK TO MY HOME TOWN BUT I DIDN'T CARE HE WAS IN THE NAVY FOR 28 YEARS AND WE MOVED ALLOVER THE PLACE AND AFTER HE RETIRED IT WAS MY TIME TO BE WITH MY MOTHER AND BEST FRIEND. IT'S BEEN 7 AND 1/2 MONTHS SINCE SHE HAS BEEN GONE AND i STILL CRY EVERY DAY. i DIDN.T SHED A TEAR WHEN MY HUSBAND LEFT ME AND MY MOTHER HAD SUCH A STRONG BOND AND i CHERISH EVERY MINUTE I SPEND WITH HER WITH NO REGRETS. TODAY MY JOB TOOK TO ME THE ER TO HAVE A PYSCH EVAL BECAUSE i CAN'T STOP CRYING... WHEN DOES THE HEALING START i MISS HER LIKE CRAZY SHE WAS ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN MY LIFE i DON'T KNOW HOW TO LIVE WITH OUT HER...

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May 01, 2012
there is somthing in love
by: kuldeep

as you go far awey from them you will find there is whole world lonely so never go from them . i lost this but pray to god nerver give this kind of situtation to anyone even my most enemy .please donot give blood tear to anyone

Aug 26, 2011
I just MISS my mom...
by: Caren

I just MISS my mom... I feel so lost... The pain is so deep...380 days... The void is horrible, awful worst then anything I ever experienced before... I find myself crying in the car, in the grocery store at my desk... I try to hide it but it is TOTALLY just not happening...I'm lost without her...What I'm I suppose to do, now??

Aug 20, 2011
help
by: Anonymous

I just lost my mom ten days ago and I can't even begin to try and figure out what I am supposed to do. This is the most shattering thing I have ever had to go through and I wish that I was not in this position. My mom is 49 years old and the most beautiful person I know. I miss her is too simple. I want her back doesn't explain it. I don't know seems to be fitting...because I don't.

Aug 19, 2011
well said...
by: HH

To: I have lost
You explain it so well and even though I made my way through grief in the same way. I appreciate the way you expressed it.

Aug 19, 2011
In Her Honor
by: geoffrey pyne campbell

Our mothers are our best friend, and no matter how old we are, we are their children. But this loss is temporary, we must remember this, one day we shall see them again, without frailty of age and without infirmity. But till that day, we do cry, there is nothing wrong with that, for our love for them, never diminishes with time. But God loves you and your Mother,you must trust Him, He is not the author of death, but of life. As it is written to encourage us "and now abideth faith, hope and love, but the greatest of these is love." That is what our Mothers taught us, but we have faith and hope that one day, we shall meet again.

Aug 19, 2011
i have lost
by: Anonymous

I have lost my only brother (47) mum and dad over the last 5 years - and a partner. Sometimes I have wondered if I was ever going to stop crying or missing any of them. I felt my links with my family had all gone, suddenly, and life would never be the same again. I felt as if I had lost who I was. Shop assistants would tell me to take care, and I wondered if I would ever feel normal again. I am the same, but a different person. Hold on in there. Sometimes there never seems to be light at the end of the tunnel, but there is. Light creeps into days of darkness, you will see a new flower, a young bird, a sunrise, and your spirits will lift. And then the cloud my descend again. Give yourself space, and somehow the emptiness will be filled. Have courage to go to the bottom of the well, let go, trust and you will emerge again. The journey is not without anxiety, indecision, tears, and uncertainty, but it is a journey only you can make, and at your own speed. Have supportive others who you can contact from time to time, who will listen, and so that you can hear another's human voice. Have courage to trust. In time, you can come to love the peace, the solitude. Do different things, catch a bus, speak to a trustworthy anonymous other and ask about the other. Change the pattern of your life - walk, cycle, travel by bus or train if you normally drive. Cook yourself a meal you would never have thought of before. Roller skate. You will learn to laugh at yourself. If you have ever been happy in the past( did you have happy times with your mum?) in time you will be happy again. Take care of yourself, and be patient with yourself until that time comes.

Aug 18, 2011
one breath at a time
by: Anonymous

You may want to get some counseling to help you grieve productively. I know that that sounds terrible it is really hard to keep things together when you are at work and the thoughts come over you, the memories. I think that it is rotten and a blessing that your work took you to the psych ward. They did not know what to do to help you and I guess that that is a start. I would think private counseling but... I cried at work quite a bit the first 6 months myself not every day but sometimes I would miss hubby so much. I tried to get my mind on my work as much as possible and allow my mind to remember when I was out of work. Easier said than done. Just know that we do understand. We have either been there or are going through it now. Read about others grief so you will now that you aren't alone...we are here to listen.
HH

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