I don't think il ever move on
I lost my partner of 4 years almost a year ago.
We have a beautiful daughter together. And I can't help but see him shining through her.
We were going through a rough patch before he died and had taken a break weeks before tragedy hit. In this time my partner had started playing around with another woman. This itself broke my heart. We may have been on a break but we were still together. Just not officially. Within four weeks of our relationship break he was murdered at a house party.
Whilst he was with this other woman.
Being a bit short on detail as it goes to trail soon.
But 11 month later I still feel as broke as the day I was told he was murdered.
I put a brave face on but all the while I am crumbling away inside.
There are days when I feel I can't live this life anymore but then our young daughter will look at me and I know I can't leave her hear in this world alone. She needs me to be strong and guide her through her life.
I think of him and my heart could burst with the love I feel. I still get those little butterfly's when I look back. But deep pain and sorrow takes over when I relies that I will never see, feel, hear or touch him again.
I really don't think il ever move past this