I don't understand why.
my grandad passed away 7 seven years ago, it will be 8 next month. I was 6, i never dealt with grieving. I can only function when people tell me what to do, but no one told me how to, so I just left it in the back of my mind. I am now 15, every year I struggle to keep it together, because I don't understand why he died and why it had such an impact on my families behaviour, they are more biast of my family, they lie, and don't want to see me anymore. I love my grandad, when he was here it was always happy, he was like a third parent to me, he taught me so much in 6 years, he is an inspiration to me, my future career is something he used to do, I want to make him proud of me, that he left this earth knowing at least one grandchild took a hobby of his. I'm going off track, I am now remembering more memories of my grandad, like when he used to take me and my sister to the park or tell me cheesy jokes. I hate that i haven't heard them in so long, and I want to so much. People always tell me I'm over-reacting and to "get over it" but I can't, I google how to deal with death everyday but everyone said different, now I found this website, I need help. it's gnawing at my mind every day, I want to be happy and at peace, I just need help. I know he's not coming back but, he was the only person who never judged me, ever. he never told me off, just gave me honest, positive advise. Miss you grandad, take care. x