I forgot What the real world was like ~
JC Penney Co-Workers
Well last time I was here I was talking about life after Death. I learned a lesson the hard way I guess. Every man I met is not Billy. Not his way of life, honesty and only he understood me. I spoke of discovering a new life after death but It was like walking in mud. Pushing and pulling to see if I fit in the outside world. Guess what? Not!!! I don't understand this new outside world, I just want my old world back. I would be so easy to climb back into my cave, close the world out and live with my memories, dreams and just wait out the storm. But, I know Billy wouldn't want that and let me tell you this, you know the Anger Stage? Well I've rediscovered it when the real world didn't fit into my old world. In fact I believe I made a comment that I was Pissed and Mad as Hell at Billy because if he was still here I wouldn't be going through this S####T ~ It wasn't the pain and devastation I felt from long ago just "The world Sucks" and I'm here alone. I know I will get pass this but it's just so frustrating at times I just want to scream at the top of my voice "ENOUGH". Then I listen and nothing happens.
I think when our love one pass we should get a couple of free tickets for emergencies. Just to help out at the really hard times. But then maybe we do get those freebie's but don't always know it because the other day when things were getting frustrating we had thunder and lighting I thought of Billy because of Arkansas and the thought crossed my mind that something just wasn't right.
Maybe that was one of my free tickets, or just a Godwink telling me to pay a attention to what's really going on around me. Just a thought...
So where do I go from here? Good question, but I do know if I have concerns, questions or doubt I can come here to this site and my friends and for that I grateful. So in the mean time....
1 step, 1 breath at a time ~ 1 year