I found them dead!
I would like to say I can make it through just about anything strongly but....In 02' I made it to my mom and dads home after my mother calls me telling me that my dad had shot himself . When i get there his remains were still on the wall. It was horrible. Finding my mother 8 years later dead, covered in blood and nude suffering from a herniated stomach was like a bad dream. Two weeks later my grand father goes into a coma only to come out a month and a half later unable to walk. My uncle who was taking care of them died 6 moths after my mother and I had to come help them. The following Sunday I found my grandfather passed away on the floor. 7 days after that my other grand mother died. I'm now taking care of my only family left, my grandmother, who has dementia. Even though shes really gone for the most part I still hang on because I dont have the heart put her in a home. My days are the most struggling I've ever delt with. I want to close my eyes at times but still see everything like it was yesterday. I resorted to vodka to kill the pain but know its only me next if I don't cope. This really sucks! I keep telling myself a lot worse things have happen to a lot better people but..... They say it will all work out, what a lame thing to say. Mostly it just sucks!