I guess maybe it would been easier if he had died...

My husband did not die...just his love for me. I really don't know where I am at in my 7 stages of grief. I talk about it about to whom ever wants to hear. It has been a little over two years and sometimes I feel like God is getting me through it then the devil sneaks in a still my joy...most of the time I can put up a good fight then it like now with all the good things happen in my life I feel like I am too tire to fight I don't give up I just lose my insights for a moment. I just can't understand how a man who is suppose to love me forever and promise before God family and friends to be my covering until death do us part. I feel I've may have made him my God, but not anymore.

My husband wasn't man enough to tell me so God did, and he wasn't man enough to make a try of holding us together he just thought the grass looked so much greener on the other side. Now he is in lust with a hoar and she is in lust with a male hoar. We live in a small town and he has been seeing by his own friends in parking lots and street corners having sex. Please pray for them both! He told me I made him do it, now if the truth had to be told I do accept responsibility for my part, but I never cheated on our marriage because I thought I found my soul mate...and why is it when (a less than a man leaves) their marriage they head for the ugliest hoar in the bunch. Before he left he could wait to tell he now found true love, "ya know movie tv kind of love." I don't know what stages of grief I am in but I do hate him for deciding my life for me. The devil is so busy cause he was just asking me about Christ and changing his life for the better.

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Nov 12, 2011
Pray, don't give up.
by: Anonymous

God knows your heart and all you are going through. I'm praying for you.

Nov 11, 2011
Write to me
by: Anonymous

I will speak with you privately if you wish to contact me at: impossiblejoy@yahoo.com. I have not lost a husband, but I have lost a son so I am fully aware how awful pain can be. Blessings, GT

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