I hadn't realized how much I still needed him until he was gone.
I am 29 years old female with three little boys. My dad loved them like crazy. But I live far away from my family so we would only see each other 2-3 times a year. We did email back and forth almost daily (sometimes 2-3 times a day). We talked on the phone about once a week, when he would randomly call me and check up on the boys and me and my husband. He is the only person in my family that took the time to talk to call me and email me and generally check up on me. My dad had health issues on and off my whole life and I expected that one day, he would go because of those many issues. But 2 weeks ago, when my youngest was 7 weeks old to the date and one day after my parents 39th wedding anniversary, my parents were in a car accident that took his life suddenly. I wasn't prepared for this, I didn't get to say goodbye, or see him one last time. He was supposed to come and visit when my son was 8 weeks old, but he died a week before he could come out. He was only 63 and my 57 year old mom is a widow now. I don't know how to deal with this. My dad was a good driver but there was nothing he could have done to avoid this accident. The other driver that hit them was driving the wrong way down the road about to make a left hand turn, my dad pulled onto the shoulder, unaware that they were turning, so they were hit anyway. I just feel lost.