I just want my mum!!! :(
I lost my Mum in September 2009 after being with her every day. I am 19 and gave up uni for 3 months to help her as much as I could. Mum loved my help and in the end was asking me to help her rather than the nurses in the hospital. I am one of 10 children and was more than happy to be mums full time caregiver. I moved house three times during the time mum was ill and when I lost her, I had no choice but to head back to uni and get on with life.
Now I'm trying to catch up on all the school work I missed and feel so alone, my friends and family have been amazing but I still feel there is no one to turn to. Mum was my best friend and the best mother anyone could imagine.
I am the only family member who saw mum in excruciating pain, and I was the one at her bedside all day or night ensuring that the doctors were doing all they could do to minimize her pain. I slept at the hospital every night and called all my siblings in on the morning of mum's death. All 11 family members were there to say goodbye.
I am still so exhausted from the times I spent looking after mum, now I have exams coming up and I just don't want to do anything! I feel I have no choice but to keep smiling and be as strong as I can.
Cancer is so cruel and awful. To watch my fit, beautiful and healthy 56 year old mother turn frail, weak and almost unrecognisable in just a few months was just horrid.
Life is way too hard without her :(