i just want my twin back. R.I.P Gerri 2/22/84 - 10/10/12
by carrie Kirkham
(rimersburg pa )
Gerri Best kiss kiss i love my sis!!
My twin left my house around 1;15pm only to be killed at 1;30pm by a semi that ran a stop sign and hit the passenger door where she sat, she was killed instantly,i got a phone call around 330 from a friend that asked if i heard about an accident i said no and hung up to call my sister. no answer i called her friend that was driving no answer. i called my land lord who happens to be my sisters friends mother in law. she said yes there was an accident and the baby was life flighted(drivers son) driver thank god walked away with a few bruises. but no word bout gerri. the next hour and half were the longest mins of my life, no one the police hospital would tell us anything said to stay where i was. i knew then it was bad news. we seen the accident on the 5 o'clock news where they said she was killed. i was numb for the first couple weeks being strong for everyone else. for four months i didn't do anything i was so deep in depression it was killing me. i lost sister, my job, friends. finally i said i got to get out of this. i just am not sure how to. half of me died with her that day and i wont ever be the same. she was the only on i could count on in my life to always be there never had to worry bout not having anyone til now. so for a month i started doing things again and then 2 find out my boyfriend was cheating and left me 9 days ago. always telling me to get over it and stop living in the past. well 4;00 this morning i realized it was the 6 month mark and had no one to turn to. i feel as if my life is over i pushed everyone away, and helped everyone in the beginning and now the only person i ever had is dead! i don't know what to do. i want her home, i want things to be normal again, i want her to be sitting in my chair and to keep her just a few mins longer that day. i have guilt for that day and so many days b4 that that i could of made a bigger effort to visit i can't ever get any of them days back. i think i get better and then something happens to bring me back down to this black hole. i just want to know when and if it ever gets easier!!