I loss everything including myself when I loss My Sweet Mother on July 12, 2009.
I lost my mom July 12, 2009, and it is March 17, 2013 and it feels like it was yesterday. I am trying so hard to deal with this but it is so hard for me and at times I dont no what to do to stop the pain and the tears. As I am writing this I can not stop crying, I am on zoloft 100mg a day and it does not feel as if it is working, and I always pray not just at night but all through the day. The image I can not get out of my head is when I came home from work I brought her orange juice she asked me to get for her earlier that day, and I went to give her a kiss and I found her with one leg on the floor and the other on the bed and she was gone, I wish I wasnt the one that had to see that because now it is stuck in my mind and heart, I just want my mother back but I no that is not posssible. To be honest I dont no what to do? it seems as if it is getting harder and harder for me.