I Lost My 47 year old son Danny September 27, 2012.
I can't think about anything but the days he was in the hospital it was from August 3, 2012 until September 27, 2012 the day Danny died and me also. I got that call he had a heart attack at first they said it was not bad and the second call I was told it was real bad and what was the beginning of the end. When we got to the hospital we were told he had a massive heart attack all his arteries were blocked ,the left side of his heart was so damaged it was dead the doctors said he would never be able to have a by pass I was in shock but I wanted Danny to see we were ok he worried about me and my husband all the time he lived at home with us he never got married but had a great girlfriend. In less then an hour his two brothers and their wives and two sisters and grandchildren were all there: This was the start of ups and downs more downs and he coded blue seven times had pace maker ,things I can't name them all he was on a ventilator so his heart could rest and his kidneys had stopped working and was put on dialyzes I thought God help him it was the worst days of our lives I prayed for him not to let him suffer just make him better everything was not helping him at this hospital so he had to have a stronger pace maker and a pump to get blood to his heart and then was life lined to large hospital that did anything transplants and a LVAD a temporary heart pump was on that until he was strong enough to have a permanent LVAD it was open heart surgery and it came with risks but we prayed and hoped with this I could have my son. The surgeon said all went well but there was so much scar tissue to cut through from another heart attack I never knew until now I never knew about his heart problems if I had maybe we could have him right now. This was one of the risks infection they had left his chest open so if they needed for bleeding infection as I write this my heart aches for what he went through and it is hard to breathe I miss him so much. There was always seven or more people with him every day for almost two months I hope no one has to lose a child even if it is a 47 year old sweet boy. Danny was buried October 2, 2012 he was loved by many almost 300 family and friends were at his funeral and he a line of cars that was seen for a mile I know Danny was looking down at them and he knows how much he was loved and will be missed I God will give me strength to go on because I know the pain and agony it is to lose our children it is the closet thing dearest and it feels like part of my heart is gone I don't know if I will ever feel normal again but I have my other children and grandchildren that need me and I need them and this was almost as bad for them. I love you Danny we all will be together again in heaven. Mom