I Lost My Baby Brother

My 19 year old brother was murdered September 15,2013. He was shot to death along with his godmother and her 12 year old son. It has been about nine months since my brothers death. Most days I don't want to do anything. I feel like a part of me died with him...some days its bearable other days its really hard for me to deal with. I hear people say in time you will be ok... I really do think that you will never be ok when someone you love so dearly dies.. I don't think that I will ever be the same. I was not there when my brother was murdered but I dream as if I were there...I wish I could have stopped it... I am filled with anger. I have always had a low tolerance for people mistreating people. But now it is extremely short, sometimes I want to scream and punch people...I don't understand how a person can take not just one life but three. I don't understand how we can be just plain out mean... My heart physically hurts every time I think about it.. I feels as if I just happened yesterday.

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Jul 02, 2014
You are not alone
by: Anonymous

I lost my older sister to murder, I also sometimes feel I could have been there to stop it. If only I could roll back time.

It is a broken world. I feel like 50 percent of my soul was ripped away from me.

You lost 2 family members that day, so perhaps you have more pain than me. I wish you to have a good life.

Jun 23, 2014
I Lost My Baby Brother
by: Doreen UK

I am sorry for your loss of your baby brother 9 months ago to a tragic death. also the loss of godmother and son.
I lost my husband of 44yrs. to cancer 2yrs. ago and I still grieve some days and miss him and always will.
Death took from us and hurt us deeply and only TIME will HEAL our hearts.
We live in a SINFUL world and this is why we have murder and all sorts of violence to people in the worst ways. Only God can change lives and make people more tolerant and forgiving. Don't try to understand why murder takes place. The world is becoming more evil and Satan is out to destroy people and families. When one turns their life over to Jesus He makes the difference.
Let God Heal your pain and sorrow over losing your brother and help you to move forward. This is our only Hope. Otherwise your anger whilst understandable will eat you up and stop your joy in life. Only God can help us with our anger and hate for mans inhumanity to man. Jesus is coming back one day to destroy evil and death forever. Sin will be no more and God will establish his new kingdom of righteousness. This is my Hope and keeps me going through each day. I hope you are able to develop a FOCUS that will help you move forward and help you recover from your grief.

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