I Lost My Baby Brother
My 19 year old brother was murdered September 15,2013. He was shot to death along with his godmother and her 12 year old son. It has been about nine months since my brothers death. Most days I don't want to do anything. I feel like a part of me died with him...some days its bearable other days its really hard for me to deal with. I hear people say in time you will be ok... I really do think that you will never be ok when someone you love so dearly dies.. I don't think that I will ever be the same. I was not there when my brother was murdered but I dream as if I were there...I wish I could have stopped it... I am filled with anger. I have always had a low tolerance for people mistreating people. But now it is extremely short, sometimes I want to scream and punch people...I don't understand how a person can take not just one life but three. I don't understand how we can be just plain out mean... My heart physically hurts every time I think about it.. I feels as if I just happened yesterday.