I lost my beautiful daughter Lorene Angele at the age of 33, March 21, 2012..
by Roberta Pangman
Lorene was only 33 but her life had been riddled with pain and turmoil and still she had one of the most brillant smiles and biggest heart of any human being born on this earth, or so I believe! She died in her sleep unexpected, the ME told us that they think it was her heart (75% blocked) and she just stopped breathing, she did not have any pain or foul play. We were told she was at a friends house when it happened but they would not tell us which friend just the name of the street? I'm still in shock and so are her 3 kids that me and my husband will now raise for her knowing that is what she would have wanted. I believe the three kids are helping us through the grieving process as we are all in this together. We have good days and bad days, we sometimes wake up crying or go to bed crying, or at least I do and I have observed crying and sobbing with nightmares in the children they are aged 14. 8 and 5. The 14 year old Tristin shares the same birth date as my daughter and since she died just before that it was very difficult to get through that birthday. She will forever be 33 while he continues. He is in councelling and has been for several years due to mental issues and they are helping him with his grief also. I did go for a couple of sessions and they really helpful just talking about it and getting confirmation we are grieving in a normal way, or what anyone can determine is normal as there is no right or wrong way to do things in this tragic situation. I think I will come back to this later as it is too much to do all at once, so for now RIP my beautiful angel...xxxooo