I lost my best friend 5 months ago

Since then, I retired and moved to be closer to my son. my life is so empty without my husband. He was my best friend, my rock, and the love of my life for 44 yrs. We were looking forward to retirement but in February he got sick and within 5 days of been in hospital he died. I sat with him 24 hrs a day holding his hands until he drew his last breath. I was so strong then but now feel like I am falling apart at times. I cry a lot and feel so alone in my grief. I know I need to get out and meet people so am working on doing some volunteer work and I joined a gym. I am functioning but sadness is with me all the time. I used to be afraid of dying but now I am no longer afraid as when the times come I hope I get to be with my husband again.

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Jul 24, 2011
To my husband
by: Anonymous

It has been 5 months and 11 days since you left this earth and I miss you. I miss your hugs,your sense of humor,our conversations and your company. You were my rock,my best friend. You were the best thing that ever happened to me. I am so sad and feel so alone without you. I carry you in my heart 24 hrs a day and I will love you for the rest of my life. Rest in peace my love.

Jul 23, 2011
I Lost Mine Too......
by: Anonymous

I feel the same. My life seems so pointless without my husband. I've done everything I'm supposed to do to try to move on. I have a new condo...new furniture.....new things. Nothing seems to make me happy. It's been 8 months for me. We were married for 38 years. I have 2 children and three wonderful grandsons. I just miss my husband so much. Most days I only want to dwell on the past. I have a good day here and there but it doesn't seem to last long. I don't know if I'll make it. Being around others helps some but then when I see couples together the depression gets me like a knife in my heart. I was doing better a few months ago. I guess that's why they call it a roller coaster ride. Up,down...up, down.
I'll keep trying and praying for all of us on this site who have lost our husbands and/or spouses. It's just so damn lonely.

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