I lost my best friend
Last October, my husband suddenly left me and my kids. It was a shock to me and everyone! Our marriage was not perfect but it was not to the point of break-up, at least as i saw it. He had been feeling lost ever since his Dad died in 2005. I wanted to help him but he refused. He did not want to open up about his thoughts & feelings. He kept saying he needed space so I left him alone to have his space.
Now he left and filed for divorce, and is suing me for half of my property. I cannot believe this is happening to me! This is not the man I married. The man I married was kind, loving, caring, generous, funny. Why would he give up 24 years of marriage and 4 beautiful children?
I do not understand. I feel mad but I also feel sad and lonely because I lost my best friend in the world. We met at church and I was so happy because I told him he was my first truly catholic friend. we connected on a spiritual level and I thought that nothing can ever break us apart if we were connected so deeply in our Faith.
In fact, the song for our wedding was Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and all these things shall be added unto you. I kept my faith but along the way he lost his. I miss him so much. I miss his face, his smile, his kiss, his hugs, his laughter, his jokes, his stories. Together with my kids, he was my joy - we connected deeper than any other person I have ever connected with before.
Now I have lost him. I wish I did not lose him. I wish I could have done something to help him but I tried and he did not want my help. When he left, he told me he did not love me anymore. I don't believe it. I love him and will always love him. He is my best friend.