I lost my best friend

by Maryssa Maynard

I lost my best friend on December 9, 2010 and I was 15 years old. My Mom had diabetes my whole life, but was diagnosed with bipolar disorder a few months before she passed. When I found out she had bipolar disorder, I barely talked to her after that. I felt like I was losing a best friend, and I didn’t want that to happen. A month before she passed away I tried to gain my relationship back with her because I knew I still had a lot of time, but I guess I was wrong. When she passed away I didn’t know what to feel or how to feel. I am 17 years old now, and am still grieving, but I just want it to end.

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Mar 27, 2013
I lost my best friend
by: Doreen U.K.

Maryssa I am sorry for your loss of your mom your best friend. You are still so very young and will probably feel very afraid of what has happened and how it is going to affect you in the days, weeks, and months ahead. None of us knows what grief feels like until we have gone through it. It is probably the worst experience of your life. You will have so much pain in your body you wonder how worse it can get. This level of grief doesn't happen with every loss. It depends on the depth of relationship you had with that person. The stronger the bond the deeper the hurt and pain. If you feel confused and alone and don't know how to cope. You could try and see a grief counsellor for support. You are a young person. You will wonder how you go on in life. ONE DAY AT A TIME. Don't try to climb this mountain of grief. Grief comes in stages. Not all at once. You may be in a place and suddenly cry and feel very sad. This is grief and it can affect you anywhere and anytime. Just let your grief come. Expressing it is good as it means you are healing from your loss. It is a long process and can take years to heal. I hope you have other family and some friends who can support you and help you walk through this valley of sorrow and loss. You will come through this grief. You will get your life back and be happy again. But for now I know it hurts. I am sorry for your loss.

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