I lost my best friend............My husband
by Sharon Timmons
On 5th January 2012 my husband passed away. He had a heart attack a week before & they found he had a heart condition that he was probably born with. He had major heart surgery on 30th december 2011, but never recovered & passed away a week later. We have two small children. 6 and a half and 20 months old. I am completely lost without him. There is a huge hole in my life now. I am trying so hard to be strong for the girls, when really all i want to do is get into bed and never wake up. But, i get up everyday & do the school run and all the other everyday things that need doing. People keep telling me im being too strong and i need to let it all out. Well i do, but when im on my own. My eldest daughter doesnt like it when i cry. She knows im sad about daddy and she is too, but she just doesnt like seeing me upset. At this point in my life, i cant see an end to this grief. We were together for almost 12 yrs and married for 7. We were best friends as well as husband and wife. He was 48 years old with so much to live for. It breaks my heart that the girls will grow up without him. He was the best father i ever could have asked for. I grew up with out my dad, but for different reasons and i never wanted my kids to have that life. At least my dad was on the end of a phone. My girls wont be able to phone daddy & say i love you. I lost my dad 7 months ago and my mother in law passed away a week later. So the last 7 months have been the worst ever. Sean & i always said "We dont do apart very well" & now we are apart. My life will never be the same again. Sean Timmons, you were & will always be, the love of my life!!