I lost my best friend............My husband

by Sharon Timmons
(Hertfordshire Uk)

On 5th January 2012 my husband passed away. He had a heart attack a week before & they found he had a heart condition that he was probably born with. He had major heart surgery on 30th december 2011, but never recovered & passed away a week later. We have two small children. 6 and a half and 20 months old. I am completely lost without him. There is a huge hole in my life now. I am trying so hard to be strong for the girls, when really all i want to do is get into bed and never wake up. But, i get up everyday & do the school run and all the other everyday things that need doing. People keep telling me im being too strong and i need to let it all out. Well i do, but when im on my own. My eldest daughter doesnt like it when i cry. She knows im sad about daddy and she is too, but she just doesnt like seeing me upset. At this point in my life, i cant see an end to this grief. We were together for almost 12 yrs and married for 7. We were best friends as well as husband and wife. He was 48 years old with so much to live for. It breaks my heart that the girls will grow up without him. He was the best father i ever could have asked for. I grew up with out my dad, but for different reasons and i never wanted my kids to have that life. At least my dad was on the end of a phone. My girls wont be able to phone daddy & say i love you. I lost my dad 7 months ago and my mother in law passed away a week later. So the last 7 months have been the worst ever. Sean & i always said "We dont do apart very well" & now we are apart. My life will never be the same again. Sean Timmons, you were & will always be, the love of my life!!

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Feb 03, 2012
So sorry
by: Anonymous

Im sorry for your loss. I lost My Husband on 1-7-10 We were Married 7 Years he was only 35 years old and died of blood clots hit his lungs worsed day of my life we had no children together I still have my bad days I miss my Love Too. God Bless You!AH

Feb 03, 2012
loss of husband
by: Audrey

I am truly holding back tears writing this. I too have lost my spouse who was not only my partner but my friend. We were married for 12 years and shared 3 beautiful little girls. His death was sudden, no symptoms,nothing. I will cherish every moment that God gave us on this side together. He died at home 5months ago with our middle child in his arms...that's an image that I will never forget. Its hard I won't lie. But God is able to see all of us through. Be blessed and stay encouraged.

Feb 02, 2012
by: Mike Stryker

Im so sorry for your lost. There is nothing as more horrible as losing a spouse.I feel for you and wish I can take the pain away.I lost my wife on Dec. 20 2008, and Its now been a little over three years. There's a few things i like to share with you,things I did and learned to get me to where Im at. I know right now it seems like that there's no hope,but always remember your husband would never want to hurt you or your kids. Try to live life like he would want you to. When you feel like everything is hopeless, go give your kids a huge hug.(I have two myself just older) They need you more now then ever. Always try to talk about the good times you had together, times that made you laugh, that kind of thing.I've learned that talking about memories are very important and helped through tough times. Its going to seem like everything reminds you of your husband, when it does try to think of a positive memory. Trust me when I say this, it will get better. The pain of losing a spouse probably never goes away,(that's because we love and miss them so much) but it does get more manageable. It just takes time. I hope this helps you, even a little bit. If it does then its worth it. Please stay strong. If there's anything or any questions I can help you with please don't hesitate. My story is titled "Living without her"

Feb 01, 2012
I understand
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. My husband passed away Dec. 2. I understand not being able to see the end to the grief. We have three children and the pain in the house and among each other is sometimes so unbearable. I am sad, angry, lonely and lost. I do not know how to do this alone and I miss him so much. He was an amazing father and I know I can never fill the void that he has left in their lives. My faith has been shaken.

Jan 31, 2012
So sorry!
by: Kim

Hi Sharon, my name is Kim and I'm from the USA. I am very sorry to hear your story about your husband. I know what your going through and our stories are very similar. On July 16,2011 I woke up and came downstairs to find my husband George had passed away on the couch of a massive heart attack. He was also 48 and way too young to leave me. He had been experiencing some chest pains and was seeing his doctors for a couple of years about it. Six months earlier he had done a stress test and he passed it so we thought his heart was OK. We were married for 18 years and we were truly the best if friends too. It seems so unfair that he is gone. We also have 2 wonderful children, 1 son 17 and 1 daughter 22. We are all hurting still after 6 months so much. Your kids are young and I'm sure they are hurting also. Nothing can prepare you for the sudden loss of your spouse. I'm sure you thought, the doctors are going to just do surgery and they will fix him and he'll be alright. Just like I thought the doctors are saying his heart is fine so I don't need to worry. It's very unfortunate to get a false sense of comfort and then end up losing them. If you ever need a friend to talk to that knows how you feel you can contact me through my email at, Kimandgeorge@live.com. Again I'm really sorry to hear you list your best friend and husband. It's not an easy road to go down. Take care and I will pray for you and your girls. Love, Kim

Jan 30, 2012
im so sorry for your loss
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for your loss i too lost my husband of 22 years on January 8th 2012 he died very suddenly and i can not come to terms with it.We knew each other 30 years he was only 58 what a waste.let us both pray we can find the strength to carry on we have to !!

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